“He is the Rock, His work is perfect; for all His ways are justice, a God of truth and without injustice; righteous and upright is He.” Deuteronomy 32:4 NKJV

It Seems Unfair

The last several months I’ve been struggling with what I perceive is “unfair” for myself and others—life isn’t fair—however, in my heart and mind I know that God is my Rock and His ways are perfect because His Word says so. I’ve experienced His perfect ways in my life numerous times—He is just and fair, and His plans and ways are so much better than mine—and I know this.

It seems that everything in my fleshly being is tired…tired of the daily negativity that surrounds me, tired of entanglements and obstacles that arise at all hours of the day, tired of the continuous delays so that projects cannot be completed or delivered, and not to mention the undue stress this puts on my financial end of things—therefore my life as a designer is not so fun these days. I’m very sad and emotionally frustrated, and the temptation to “quit” has entered my mind several times a day more now than ever…and of course, I can’t quit. There are adjustments that I need to make with God’s guidance and instruction. “Beware of giving up too soon. Our emotions are not reliable guides” (John Piper).

I’ve done my share of complaining in prayer to my Lord while asking Him what my part is and what I should do. I’ve also asked Him to show me a glimpse of progress or accomplishment while on this journey. David prayed in Psalm 142:2, “I pour out my complaint before Him; and tell my trouble before Him”; and in Psalm 143:5, 8, “I remember the days of old; I meditate on all that You have done…. Let me hear in the morning of Your steadfast love, for in You I trust.”

Today, if you’re dealing with struggles—pain, heartache, financial, etc.—you are not alone. Our problems are not trivial to Him. God sees us and He hears us even when we don’t feel that He is near, or even when we don’t see progress. We know that He is working behind the scenes for us—that is the hope we have in Jesus. His work is perfect, His ways are just.

God answered my prayer. I’ve seen a glimpse of hope of some accomplishments, as well as a little financial help for my hard work. Once again, He lets me know He is near; He’s got this.

I believe complaining is okay—if we complain only to Him. He delights in us and understands us.

“God never hurries. There are no deadlines against which He must work. Only to know this is to quiet our spirits and relax our nerves” (A.W. Tozer).

Lord, once again we come before You with our complaints and our praise! You are just and fair. We give You all the glory! Amen.