“My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” Psalm 73:26

Failing Flesh

On the journey of recovery I’m on, I continue to have good days and not-so-good days. I hope and pray for more of the good days. I’ll be the first to admit that I don’t like being weak! I don’t need to be superwoman, but I like to have enough strength and energy to get through my daily activities. Some days that isn’t possible.

I’ve told the Lord that I’d really appreciate it if He’d help my strength to return more quickly. As He’s so often done on the unexpected journey we’re on—He turned my attention to things I can learn during this time. He truly doesn’t waste any of our sorrows, but uses them to help us learn and grow.

The first thing He spoke to my heart is that in weakness as I come to Him, it allows Him to be strong. The focus is on Him, not me. There is something very precious about admitting my weakness and allowing His power and strength to help me. In my weakness, it draws me closer to His heart of love and care for me. And He is always sufficient! The well of His strength never runs dry.

He also showed me that there is new humility to be learned in weakness. I need help in my current situation. I can’t make it on my own. I have to humbly ask and receive help from friends around me. I’m so grateful for the love and care of my friends—and I’m humbled by it. It’s okay to not be strong!

I’ve also had to learn that many things won’t get done. I try to ask the Lord for His priorities for each day, and not stress about the things that don’t get my attention. When things are staring you right in the face, I find it hard to not stress about them, but I have to focus on the things the Lord draws my attention to.

As I look back over the last few years of this journey, I think about all the “hard” things along the way. It warms my heart to see that in each hard thing, God taught me so many important lessons. He drew me closer to Himself, and His grace was sufficient for each thing I faced. Yes, there have been many points of weakness…that thing I don’t like. But at each of those points He has helped me learn and grow. He has been faithful to me in each thing I’ve faced.

I guess what I’m saying is that in every “season” of this journey—both good things and hard, difficult things—God has used what I’ve walked through to teach me and draw me closer to Himself. Keeping my eyes on Him, even thanking Him for everything, requires a deep level of trust. I’m learning to trust Him more and more. It’s an important part of this journey.

Father, though we don’t like it in the moment, we know You have housed us in flesh that fails, that we may learn to trust You. May You be blessed forever!

A SPECIAL REQUEST FROM SALLY

We are attempting to compile an archive of Floyd’s speaking/teaching/preaching over the years. We are searching for videos/audios and also written articles. I wish we had done this years and years ago, but now that Floyd’s “voice” is silent it seems more important than ever. The All Nations International office in Kansas City is co-ordinating this. If you have anything that you can share with us, would you please do so? You can contact Jennifer at jbaldridge@allnations.international. I would really appreciate this. Thank you.