“Because He is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will rest in hope…. You have made known to me the paths of life; You will fill me with joy in Your presence.” Acts 2:25,26,28

Faith Walk

Thank you for your love and prayers for me concerning the diagnosis of the cancer having returned. I’m blessed by your words of encouragement. I guess I’m still recovering from the shock of that news. I am feeling so good that it’s hard to believe that those ugly cancer critters are still thriving.

Many of my friends have written that they “have no words.” I think that’s a bit how I feel. I have done so much in working to beat the cancer, that I hardly know what to say about it returning.

As I’ve prayed and meditated the last few days, I realize that there aren’t words. The only thing I can have is continued trust in the Lord and worship to Him for His faithfulness. But I have to say that it hasn’t been easy. I’m so glad the Lord prepared me about keeping my thoughts focused on what is “good and right and true.” It’s so easy for fear and hopelessness to enter in at a time like this. I refuse to accept that, but it seems like my mind is bombarded with it. I saw a quote about 1 Thessalonians 5:24: “Fearless is trusting God to do the impossible for you, through you, in you.” I’m choosing to be fearless in Him!

In many ways it feels like my balloon of hope has been deflated. The last few days I’ve spent time talking to the Lord, and letting Him re-inflate my balloon! Hope is growing afresh in my heart. After many long months on this unexpected journey, I’m a bit battle weary. But I’m asking the Lord for fresh strength to continue on. I’m getting ready to go to war against the cancer again with God’s help.

Someone sent me this verse from Joshua 3:4: “Then you will know which way to go, since you have never been this way before.” This is a new highway on our journey. I’m trusting God to direct my path.

At times like this, I miss Floyd even more. But I know He would join me in choosing and living by what the verse above says. It’s a wonderful outline for how to go forward!

“Father, we really are desperate for You. We cannot live apart from You, and we trust You. Give us strong faith when we can’t see the way ahead. Amen.”