“He has redeemed my soul from going to the pit, and my life shall see the Light.” Job 33:28
The Pit
A Prayer To My Lord
“Lord, it’s dark in here, and I cannot see You or hear Your voice.
“Your hand reaches out to me, yet in my dark place I cannot see to grasp it. I feel detached and abandoned by those closest to me. My heart feels cold and hollow, yet my spirit longs for communion with You. “Busyness” has twisted my priorities and left me confused, paralyzed and destroyed.
“You told Joshua to be strong and courageous, not terrified or discouraged, because You would be with him wherever he goes. I do not feel strong or courageous. My plans are blocked by expectations dashed against my stone-cold heart–too hard and heavy to move.
“Disappointments abound from others as well as me. How could I expect anyone else to care about me when I don’t? My empty spirit weeps within me. People around me need something from me, but I have nothing to give. What is the use of going on when I am no good to anyone around me? I have failed and life has become too challenging, demanding, overwhelming and disappointing. People try to encourage me but to no avail. My ears are not hearing their words, my eyes are not seeing their love, and my empty, frigid heart cannot accept what they are trying to give me. I have filled my life with everything except You. Therefore I have no hope. Deep in my heart I know I can’t quit, aware You want to encourage me. Hear me, O God, warm my frigid heart to care and love again. I want to cry with someone who is hurting but I am selfish and indifferent. My tears mingle only with my own. Lord, help me not to retreat further into my self-pity, nourishing the lies.
“Lord, I know You hear my cry but it is head knowledge and not heart knowledge. I want to trust You through the darkness; turn everything over to You, but pride tells me, “I can do it myself.” I have listened to lies long enough. Turn my face toward You, Lord. Only Your truth can set me free. I desperately need a “heart-wash” from You, Lord. Cleanse, soften and open my heart again, for You to refill. Renew desire in me to read Your Word and spend time with You. Fill my heart with hope so that I can accomplish Your plan for my life.”
“Your Word assures me that even when I cannot feel You, still You are with me. I need faith to believe and act on that truth. Place Your hand over my empty heart and fill me with the faith I need to take the next step to follow You instead of giving up. In effort to believe, I thank You. Remind me that I am never truly alone, for You are with me, and will NEVER LEAVE ME.”
That struck a familiar cord.. Father forgive me and show me the way!
Thank you for being so real in hopes that it would lencourage someone else..:it did. ❤️
Praying for you and all of us who feel, have felt or will feel the same way…Jesus shine Your light into the darkness…Abba Father open our eyes, ears, hearts and minds to Your love and fill us afresh with Your Holy Spirit! Thank you for your transparency 🙂
Same here, was just praying this morning that I am so caught up in my own world and what is best for me today that I lose sight of my real purpose He has for me.
Just as the previous commenter said, as I was praying this morning I felt that same trap/snare around me. I asked God to be in control even still.
I need more of his Holy Spirit in my life to have the faith to know he is with me.
I am struck by how many have identified with this place. It seems so many of us have been there, yet when we are, we think we are all alone there.