“O Lord, you have searched me and known me.” Psalm 139:1

Every Tiny Crevice

On this unexpected journey we’re on, I find God finds ways to touch every area of my life and my heart with special lessons. I recently had an unusual one.

I was expecting something to happen, and I thought it hadn’t. It wasn’t a big thing. It was actually very small—a speck of sand in comparison to the big, rocky, boulder-type issues going on in my life! But it touched a tender nerve. I felt disappointed and somewhat rejected. But it was such a tiny, tiny thing that I dismissed it.

The only problem was that it kept coming back to my mind. So obviously the “nerve” it touched was bigger than I thought. I gave it to the Lord, and confessed to Him that I realized He wanted me to find my full acceptance, approval, and security in Him. I actually prayed that prayer quite a few times during the course of the day until I felt like it was truly dealt with in my heart.

Then about 24 hours later, I found out that what I thought was going to happen… actually did happen, but I wasn’t aware of it. I was dealing with the tender nerve for no reason at all! Well, you can imagine how God started speaking to me.

First of all, I sat down and laughed. I felt that God might be chuckling at me too. I allowed something to “get” to my heart for no reason. I had a good talk with the Lord about all this. I realized there was a vulnerable spot in my heart that I needed to give to Him. I needed to let His love for me fill every tiny crevice of my heart so that there was no room left for any feelings of rejection, insignificance, or aloneness to sneak in.

I was surprised at all this, because I went on a long spiritual journey when I was young in dealing with insecurity in my life. But somehow, someway this small opening was uncovered. I’m so grateful I could bring it to the Lord and get it dealt with. I don’t want to leave any openings in my heart for the enemy to try and use or exploit.

It also made me thank the Lord afresh for how much He has used this journey to speak to me and teach me things that I need to learn. It was a very sweet, personal lesson to my heart! I’m grateful that He didn’t leave that tiny “speck of sand” un-dealt with in my life. How good He is!

“Father, we are grateful that You know us, and that You will uncover every hidden thing in our hearts and bring it to the light. Amen.”